Failing to fetch me at first keep encouraged,
Missing me one place search another,
I stop somewhere waiting for you.”
― Walt Whitman, Song of Myself
I remember nights of intense revelry. Existing in the moment in celebratory communion with the crowd, I launched myself into the universe as so many have done before me. Rebelling against time. Finding anonymity in the noise and the bustle. Searching. Always searching.
I sought connection. I sought transcendence. I sought a reprieve from deliberate thought and all that comes with it (insecurity and anxiety and hubris and confusion). Those attempts at seeking were rudimentary, yes. But as I excavate the past to inform my journey forward, I find many precious jewels.
Revelry takes a different form now. I live amid constant revelry. My life is noise and chaos and boisterous merrymaking. It is all around me. I watch. I take part. I watch some more. It is laughter and shrieking and breathlessness and silliness and potty humor and affection and four and two year old run amok-edness.
Sometimes, it is just noise. Other times, it is revelatory.
I find now that what I sought in the revelry of my past is more easily found in the inverse – in a quiet stillness, vast and strong. A stillness that, in truth, is more a state of mind than an actual state of affairs in my busy and highly animated home. It is this idea that is represented by my contribution to our project this month. In the profound stillness of this delicate tree, I saw beauty and promise and hope. I reveled in it. I felt, for a moment, that I had found exactly what I was searching for. I stood in the cold and soaked it in. I felt alive and connected. I was rejuvenated and intensely satisfied. I was free.
Our Different Sameness is the combined effort of a group of photographers seeking to explore our human connection through images and words. In our attempt to authentically capture what may prove to be intangible and elusive, we seek only to journey together honestly. Every month, we will explore what it means to be human, and how we experience life as part of a collective. Our goal is not only to explore these themes, but to celebrate the sameness we find within them. To learn more about the project and view our work, visit us here.